God knows our hearts and minds. When a friend of mine killed himself nearly two years ago, I couldn’t fathom the state of mind one has to have to put a shotgun to his own head, let alone someone else’s. Steve killed a man and himself.
You would not put your family at risk by being unarmed. I understand and concur. And you should not put you and your family at risk of disobeying your bishop.
How best to be known than by the glory of your own children in the eyes of God and Community? That glory is a simple accolade: Well done, good and faithful servant.
It’s what a ManHusbandDad lives and dies for.
Because to NOT share it is to participate in the very thing that, in this case even the Priest was doing, which is putting asunder the marriage.